Sunday, October 4, 2009

The Beginning

I've been wanting to start this blog for over a month now. Over the past two weeks, I've written and re-written, edited and cut. Never has it been this hard for me to write. Over the past year, I've gotten used to everything I write being scrutinized. While I realize this betters me, it also apprehends me.

Regardless of my fear of critical eyes, I need this. Maybe that's exactly why I need this.

I'm at an interesting place in my life now, lots of dissonance within. I know that at times my truths will be contradictory. It will make those that I'm close to question me. It will make me question myself. While I can't apologize for that, I am aware.

I've always been envious of people that have the ability to express themselves artistically. Singers use their voice to set their soul free.  Dancers use their body to laugh and cry. Even actors often find bits and pieces of themselves in portraying someone else.

This is all that I have. Just the words on the page. But, when I say it's all--it's everything. This is where my soul is made free. This is what keeps me honest.

I am a person that likes things raw. Free of pretense. I prefer an ugly truth over a pretty lie. I have yet to tell my own ugly truth. This, is the beginning of that.

"Most truths are so naked that people feel sorry for them and cover them up, at least a little bit."- Edward R. Murrow


Anonymous said...

Nice! Looking forward to what's to come!

akenia said...

nice. can't wait to see your freedom in these posts i'm proud of you

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